Seriously.. DO I REALLY LOOKED LIKE I GIVE A FUCK ??!!!

yea.. damn you and your idiotic way of expressing your thoughts..

yes i feel tat ..
at least for this whole particular day..

Pagi2 bangun , baca sumting di sumwhere..
and the conclusion was made thousand miles away from my cold room ..
The only thing I’m regretting.. that eventhough gue tau this thing bakal eventually kejadian, I was never informed .. not even said goodbye to..

G berharap gue bisa stay cool..
G berharap gue bisa cuek kaya g cuek kaya waktu itu ..
but somehow i still feel ess aaa dee today ..
there, i’ve said it.

So best of luck for you..
.. and maybe for me too ..

ps: this song i didnt like before until today, i cant stop playing it, in my mp3, in my winamp, in my head..

We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free, yeah
So I’m letting you fly
’cause I know in my heart, babe
Our love will never die, no

You’re always be a part of me ..
I’m part of you indefinitely.
Girl, Dont you know you can’t escape me.
Oo darling, Cause you’ll always be my baby

And we’ll linger on…
Time can’t erase the feeling this strong.
No way, you’re never gonna shake me
Oo darling, Cause you’ll always be my baby

- *David Cook*

hmmm…
okay..
got a new category to promote.
will call it : “Places I’ve Been in Singapore”

hahaha..
this one will be filled with pics.
Pergi ke Sentosa 2 minggu kemarin…
nothing that special si. soalnya ini ketiga kali pergi kesana. well guess again, they say, 3rd time is the charmed one.

Diajak D kesana, melepas stres katanya.
Ini hari yang sama dgn hari pindahan ke Tiong. jadi sampe VivoCity jam 6 kurang dikit. ke Daiso dulu beli Frisby titipan D.
Nyampe Cafe Del Moar jam 1/2 7. ketemu D,F,C,M,E,sodaranya D, temennya E.

Dari luar keliatannya cafe biasa ya. hahaha.
dalemnya bo. luar biasa. ada pool. ada pantai. ada ranjang. YA,RANJANG!
hoahoahohaoa..
maen frisby, maen bola sepak.. (ITU BOLA SEPAK DIK, BUKAN BOLA VOLI) hoahoahoaha, maen lari2an, poto2, nangkring2, tidur2an. oops.

Pas lagi poto2 eh ada rehearsalnya AU nya SG buat National Day Parade. but we managed to get this beautiful sunset. thanks to D.

makin malem ini cafe makin happening. *yes, thats the bed i mentioned earlier*

Malemnya nonton Songs of the Sea.
wah ini show kerennnnnnnnnnnn. i like it a lot. bole de nonton berkali2 juga.
bis kelar nonton, balik lagi ke Cafe Del Moar, nongkrong2 bentar sebelum bubaran pulang.

Ya.
uda seminggu pindah dari Farrer Park, ke Tiong Bahru.
well, you can call me sentimentil, but aga2 gimana jg si pas cabut dari Farrer. Since that place is the very place i called “Home Sweet Home” for the last 6 months.
Place where i landed my head to sleep on my first nite here.
Place where i stressed out lookin for a job in the first week.
Place where i learned to cook .. spaghetti.. beef teriyaki .. soup .. hmm nyam..
Place where i jumped like a crazy man when finally got a job..
Place where i spent my sundays just laying down on the couch reading “Tuesdays With Morrie”..
Place dimana gue kl pulang kantor jam 1.30 pagi juga tinggal jalan kaki nyampe dlm waktu 15 menit.

Haha..
but they say good thing must come to an end.
mau ga mau mesti pindah soalnya ownernya mo balik pake itu rumah. Karena males nyari, kebetulan ada yang pasang iklan. sekali viewing, dalam hari yg sama lgsg approve ambil de ni rumah. lebi mahal banyak dari rumah Farrer. but.. hmm i’m trying to love it..

Yang pasti si di sini nyari makan gampaaaaaaaang. 24jam pula. semoga terjamin de perut kuwh hihi.
Trus di sini lebih banyak temen. secara mereka tinggal nearby, jadi bisa pulang bareng kl kemaleman.

oya ngomong2 Tiong Bahru, semalem nyobain Zouk. hoahoahoa. yes. the famous Zouk. Berempat bareng A, sodarnaya A and F. And know wat… i like the place. much better than St James. murni dugem si. joget2 ga jelas sampe pagi. “Shake the stress away” kalo kata Rihanna haha. Tempetnya jg lebi luas dari St James, ga perlu takut nyenggol orang kl lagi joget2. Realllllly had a good time. pulang dari sana jalan ke chinatown nyari bubur hihi. alhasil sampe rumah jam 5 pagi lol.

Social life’s been good to me lately. Got lots of cool lunch mates. Got cool ppl to hang out every weekend. well, hope not everything should come to an end … *cross-finger*

“Bagi dunia kau hanya seseorang, tapi bagi seseorang kau adalah dunianya”

Membeli kebahagiaan dengan “segepok uang”, cukupkah ????

Seperti biasa Andrew, Kepala Cabang di sebuah perusahaan swasta terkemuka di Jakarta, tiba di rumahnya pada pukul 9 malam.

Tidak seperti biasanya, Sarah, putri pertamanya yang baru duduk di kelas tiga SD membukakan pintu untuknya. Nampaknya ia sudah menunggu cukup lama.

“Kok, belum tidur ?” sapa Andrew sambil mencium anaknya.

Biasanya Sarah memang sudah lelap ketika ia pulang dan baru terjaga ketika ia akan berangkat ke kantor pagi hari.

Sambil membuntuti sang Papa menuju ruang keluarga, Sarah menjawab, “Aku nunggu Papa pulang. Sebab aku mau tanya berapa sih gaji Papa ?”

“Lho tumben, kok nanya gaji Papa ? Mau minta uang lagi, ya ?”

“Ah, enggak. Pengen tahu aja” ucap Sarah singkat.

“Oke. Kamu boleh hitung sendiri. Setiap hari Papa bekerja sekitar 10 jam dan dibayar Rp. 400.000,-. Setiap bulan rata-rata dihitung 22 hari kerja.Sabtu dan Minggu libur, kadang Sabtu Papa masih lembur. Jadi, gaji Papa dalam satu bulan berapa, hayo ?”

Sarah berlari mengambil kertas dan pensilnya dari meja belajar sementara Papanya melepas sepatu dan menyalakan televisi.

Ketika Andrew beranjak menuju kamar untuk berganti pakaian, Sarah berlari mengikutinya. “Kalo satu hari Papa dibayar Rp. 400.000,-untuk 10 jam, berarti satu jam Papa digaji Rp. 40.000,- dong” katanya.

“Wah, pinter kamu. Sudah, sekarang cuci kaki, tidur” perintah Andrew.

Tetapi Sarah tidak beranjak. Sambil menyaksikan Papanya berganti pakaian, Sarah kembali bertanya, “Papa, aku boleh pinjam uang Rp. 5.000,- enggak ?”

“Sudah, nggak usah macam-macam lagi. Buat apa minta uang malam-malam begini? Papa capek. Dan mau mandi dulu. Tidurlah”.

“Tapi Papa…”

Kesabaran Andrew pun habis. “Papa bilang tidur !” hardiknya mengejutkan Sarah.

Anak kecil itu pun berbalik menuju kamarnya.

Usai mandi, Andrew nampak menyesali hardiknya. Ia pun menengok Sarah di kamar tidurnya. Anak kesayangannya itu belum tidur.

Sarah didapati sedang terisak-isak pelan sambil memegang uang Rp. 15.000,- di tangannya. Sambil berbaring dan mengelus kepala bocah kecil itu, Andrew berkata, “Maafkan Papa, Nak, Papa sayang sama Sarah. Tapi buat apa sih minta uang malam-malam begini? Kalau mau beli mainan, besok kan bisa. Jangankan Rp.5.000,- lebih dari itu pun Papa kasih” jawab Andrew

“Papa, aku enggak minta uang. Aku hanya pinjam. Nanti aku kembalikan kalau sudah menabung lagi dari uang jajan selama minggu ini”.

“lya, iya, tapi buat apa ?” tanya Andrew lembut.

“Aku menunggu Papa dari jam 8. Aku mau ajak Papa main ular tangga. Tiga puluh menit aja. Mama sering bilang kalo waktu Papa itu sangat berharga. Jadi, aku mau ganti waktu Papa. Aku buka tabunganku, hanya ada Rp.15.000,- tapi karena Papa bilang satu jam Papa dibayar Rp. 40.000,- maka setengah jam aku harus ganti Rp. 20.000,-. Tapi duit tabunganku kurang Rp.5.000, makanya aku mau pinjam dari Papa” kata Sarah polos

Andrew pun terdiam. ia kehilangan kata-kata. Dipeluknya bocah kecil itu erat-erat dengan perasaan haru sambil meneteskan air mata . Dia baru menyadari, ternyata limpahan harta yang dia berikan selama ini, tidak cukup untuk “membeli” kebahagiaan anaknya.

“Bagi dunia kau hanya seseorang, tapi bagi seseorang kau adalah dunianya”

ps: sekedar pengingat bahwa uang bukan segalanya… semoga WordPress masi ada kelak kalo gue uda punya anak nanti dan g baca artikel ini lagi hihi..

ga da bahan posting.
hahaha. well ada si banyak, tapi ga ada waktu dan gue bener2 butuh delapan hari seminggu these days. with 3 weekend days …
Bis baca2 wikipedia, ketemu ginian hahaha. dan 90% betul nihh!!! 10% lagi terserah saya

Source: Wikipedia - Zodiac Libra

Libra is the seventh astrological sign in the Zodiac, originating from the constellation of Libra. In western astrology, this sign is no longer aligned with the constellation as a result of the precession of the equinoxes. In astrology, Libra is considered a “masculine”, positive (extrovert) sign. EXTROVERT?? DID I JUST READ EXTROVERT??? which part of me is extrovert?? It is also considered an air sign and is one of four cardinal signs. Libra is ruled by the planet Venus (which also rules Taurus). It is governed by the 7th House (House of Love & Relationships).

Individuals born when the Sun was in this sign are considered Libra individuals. Under the tropical zodiac, the Sun enters Libra around September 23 - 24 and exits around October 22 - 23.

The following traits are widely associated with this sign.
* Diplomatic / compromising (however possibly manipulative)
* Cooperative
* Fair / balanced / impartial
* Idealistic (in relationships) *hmmm…*
* Charming
* Easy-going / sociable *is it??*
* Indecisive / changeable
* Peace loving
* Gullible / influenceable
* Elegant / graceful
* Refined / artistic / good taste
* Pleasure oriented *YESSSSSSSSSS THIS ONE IS CORRECT!*
* Gentle
* Sensitive to others
* Kind
* Cheerful
* Romantic
* Flirty / frivolous (however loyal in marriage) *hahahahaahahah.. please.. bear with me, its in my zodiac :p*

Many astrologers believe that each of the twelve signs has identifiable physical traits. Some of them consider that physically, individuals born under the sign of Libra supposedly tend to have a graceful figure, a charming appearance, refined features, a high forehead, and a ‘trademark’ dimple.[9] They are often good looking individuals and use their good looks well.

Libra is widely thought to be compatible with the same element signs, Aquarius,Gemini,and Libra itself. Libra is also often considered to be good with Sagittarius.

Associations
Birthstones Sapphire • Jade
Colours Pink • Pale Green • Lavender *wakakak pantesan gue suka banget warna en bau lavender*
Gemstones Jade • Peridot
Flowers Rose • Daisy
Metal Copper
Countries Japan • Burma • Austria • Tibet • China

Have you ever invest on something ?
Okay, sebelum g terdengar seperti Akuntan ato broker ato nawarin MLM, this investment here means more about life itself.

Orang tua yang ngerawat anaknya biar kelak dia tua gantian anaknya ngerawat dia.
Orang yang suka mingle di tengah temen-temennya, karena hobi sharing and socializing.
Orang yang rela ngabisin hari sabtunya belajar di rumah daripada pergi maen sama temen2nya.
Orang yang kerja sepenuh hati, berharap hasil kerjanya bisa bikin hidup orang lain lebih baik. (dan hidupnya sendiri tentunya dgn naik pangkat / naek gaji)
Orang yang cinta banget sama pacarnya, kemana-mana berdua dan merasa dunia milik berdua.
dan lain lain..
etc etc …

I call that life investment.

sebelum lanjut. kenapa tiba2 nongol topic aneh gini. hmm.
Mungkin karena abis dari National Museum kemaren, and I saw a couple good materials there. Lucu ngeliat hasil2 potography teenager nya SG. ada satu poto yang isinya jendela2 apartemen orang 1 gedung. Trus pas di depan g berdiri aunty2. dia bilang (translated) “wah ini kaya rumah kita nih. eh bentar.. satu .dua .. lima .. enam.. sepuluh. SEPULUH! beneran nih ini rumah kita, tuh di lantai sepuluhnya ada yang kaya AC kita”. wakakakak gue ngakak dalem ati.

Sumting in those pictures caught my thoughts that night. That we should put investment in life much more than we put in materials like money or ourself ego.

And that’s what I’ve been working on lately.
walo ada jatoh bangunnya juga.
like these last couple of days I feel like I’m making some bad investments.

It can be someone you spend most of your time but turns out breaking your heart.
Can be someone ppl told you not to hang out with, but you still do and she pissed you off in the worst way.
Can be a job you think can provide you with lots of money, but turns out demanding all your time, and no matter how much money you have, you end up alone with no true friends.

There always 2 sides of the coin they say.
Shit happens.
People you’re close to might hurt you.
and Yes, your investment can goes wrong sometimes.

but it always worth the pain.
Good thing about investment is, even though its a bad one. It still teaches you not to make the same bad one in the future.

So fuck all my bad investments.
I’m moving on .. ! hehe..

what a week.
Tired, Lemah, Letih, Lesu, Ga ada semangat idup. ga produktip di kantor.
but tonite things lookin good to me.
Did 2 things that -if I’m still the same me 2 or 3 years ago- would have said “No” to.

Dan ya.. sometimes kita memang harus diketok dulu pake palu segede gaban sebelum sadar kl this life is too big and too great to be wasted with your stupid ego.

Kaya forward-an email nya Mona tadi di kantor : There are 2 eternities that can brings you down called Yesterday and Tomorrow. One is passed already and the other doesnt exist. So live today!!

Still tired .. but Happy ^^

ps: Shall remark tonite as one of the Big moment of my life that I found my real-self.

Okay. Tadinya uda mo tidur aja, tp tiba2 diajak conference malam buta sama Fitri dudut. Dan mumpung idenya masi fresh, sebenernya jg ga fresh2 amat, dah planning dari minggu2 kemaren buat posting ttg ini, tp ada aja yang bikin ga jadi, ya nonton la, ya ngebar lah, ya ditolak ce lah (lho*?*), so mumpung ada niat, mari kita ngemeng :p

I call it “Positive Chain Reaction” theory. Perna ngga si ngerasa kalo ada saat-saatnya kita beruntung banget. entah karena ada yg ngasi duit disaat lagi cekak, ada yang mau dengerin curhat pas kita lagi stres, ada yang mo bantuin kita pas kita lagi bener2 butuh bantuan, ada yang ngasih kita contekan di saat malem sebelum ujian kita ketiduran (ups). ya you know la, those kinda things.
Dan the name of the game is, that you forward every kindness and helps that you ever received to someone else.

Dan selama idup g, banyak banget orang-orang yang uda membantu g. Selama di Jakarta, banyak yg entah sengaja atau ga disengaja membuat idup g lebih baik, either with their helps, their kindness, their honesties, or sometimes with their adviSes. But back then gue masi Cocky, i thought i would still escape the hell hole even without them. But i was damn wrong. Dan Paling kerasa pas g dateng ke sg sih, mulai dari akomodasi, cari kerja, temen, rasanya yang bantu g banyak banget. This is when i made a promise (jgn tanya dgn siapa hahaha), that i will do the same to anyone who walks the same path that i did. makanya g ga komplain pas bantuin We viewing rumah, jemput dia di bandara, ngajarin dia masak huahuahua, juga pas M dateng, i threw away my ego of past heart-ache and offer her my help that i can do.

Memang si ga selalu kita bisa ngerasain kaya gitu. Ada jg saatnya kita ngerasa lonesome banget. *like i do these days*. Ga ada yang rasanya mau dengerin curhat kita, bikin kita lega, bikin kita senyum. Seolah2 ga ada yg peduli. But this is where the challenge comes. Why not try to be that kind of person for others. Dan g yakin every light that shines from you will be reflected to you thousand times brighter

Dan imagine what a great world we can make if everyone do this kinda thing. Kita bener2 bisa bikin City of Angels, well even better, World of Angels. With a very simple reason, that is becoz we received it easily, we should pass it to others as well as the same easy way.
I’ve found another purpose lately. Ngobrol sama kolig kemaren, sedikit ngasih g harapan dan mungkin juga tujuan. I’m ready to let go of my big Ego and try new things that i was always so damn afraid of. Gue mau nanti istri gue kelak ngomong hal yang sama kaya yang dia bilang ke gue ttg suaminya saat ditanya “what made you believe he’s the one?” Doakan saya yahhh!

hufff.. tenga malem buta ngemeng apa si gue hihi.
Hope YOU have a nice dream tonight

uff.. last nite movie week. minggu ini Clubbing week. Berawal dari kolig yang diajak ngebar sama istrinya, trus dia ngajak kita2. akhirnya Friday nite nangkring di salah satu pub di Clarke Quay. Rame pula. ada kali 10orang lebih. shoot terakhir kali clubbing serame ini pas masi jaman2 abege sama anak2 kos. sampe sana, kesan pertama “wtf .. this place is tiny!” tapi ternyata asik juga. maen blackjack, Dice (or Liar Poker kl kata Alex), nge-pool *HOHO I WAS THE UNDISPUTED ON THIS ONE. gile ada kali setaon terakhir nyodok hihi*, sama karaoke (yang ini juga seru, pa lagi pas customernya tinggal kita2.. nyanyi sampe suara serek).

Pulang jam 2. badan merah semua. wtf. dah lama ga minum dan keknya minum kebanyakan malem itu *kalah melulu maen Dice ><* kenalan sama temen2 ce istrinya kolig, pas pulang dikasi tau kalo temen2nya itu uda pada tunangan malah uda ada yg anaknya 3 *still shocked*

Sabtu siang viewing kamar di Tiong Bahru. and I decided to take it. a bit expensive though, but kamarnya lumayan gede. and since im to lazy too look for another one, maybe should stick it with this one for the moment.
Nonton Hancock. Cuma dapet nilai 7. ya 7.5 lah karena ada Charlize Theron nya haha.

Sabtu malem clubbing lagi. ke St. James. mumpung dapet tiket gratis. bersepuluh lagi. tapi ampir semua kecuali yang ngasih tiket gratis orang indo. Pertama masuk ke The Boiler Room, kesan pertamanya, “aiyoo.. there singaporeans, really should try clubbing in Indonesia, got much more spacious places lehh”. sempit banget ruangannya, dan dengan orang yang segitu banyaknya, goyang dikit uda nyenggol kanan kiri. Live music 3 set of performances. the dance wasnt so happening. mungkin gara2 cuma nelen beer jadinya ga naek. *kebayang dulu berdua Sen di Surabaya, uda kaya orang gila berdua di depan joget ga jelas mwahuahuahua*

All nite long i cant get my mind out of thinking bout “that”. I must admit I din 100% enjoy the moment though, pa lagi pas band nya nyanyiin lagu “Apologize” nya One Republic. ufffff.. wad a crap..

Church was boring today. Not even the Choire could play their usual Charm on me. and the last thing i saw before leaving it makes me now playing this song again and again…

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

- What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts -

Tried to reach my so-called close friends. Sen’s the only one who can make my smile for a while then. Maybe i really should catch some sleep. tired.

Well, nevertheless.. I hope your weekend is as happening as mine. *dont count the crappy part though*